Today my truck started making funny noises when it was idling so my dad and I took it into the shop. So for now I drive my shitty Achiva.
I went into work today and saw Across the universe, it was pretty good. It wasn't the best movie I've ever seen but it wasn't bad. I did enjoy many of the songs.
I waited up all night to register for classes and now I have a hold on my account for a 75 cent library fine. I hate city college so much right now. My mom and I had a talk tonight about my college plans, she didn't like my new found logic. I'm predestined to attend Fresno State theres no fighting it no matter how much I dream of leaving Fresno again I know that if I were to do it that my family would some how fail me again and I would just end up poorer and one more year behind. Anyway I discovered that all I really need to transfer is get a C I don't really have to try to get a good grade in class I just have to try to get an average grade. This didn't settle well with my mom or my dad, they know I could get A's and B's if I wanted and I know I could get A's and B's if I wanted, it's just that city college is so boring that I want to cry. I have taken a liking to the short term classes that are offered, I like to just get everything over and done with in 9 weeks versus 18 weeks.
I'm regretting letting my pride stand in my way, I miss Jessica, Josh and Mo very much. I kind of wish I had taken Jessica up on her offer to pay for me to come down to LA for a few days. Prides a bitch sometimes I have to start humbling myself.
My birthday is coming up, I've always had a hard time with my birthday and accepting gifts or having celebrations. I don't know where this stems from but it's a real problem. Tarra wanted to do something fun for my birthday like go up to San Francisco for the day or weekend. But I turned that down I can't bring myself to accept a gift like that. Then she asked if I was going to go out for a birthday dinner and I couldn't think of anyone that would really want to come to my birthday dinner. I know it sounds kind of mean and rude to all of my friends but it's true I mean I think people would have better things to do on a Saturday night then pay for my dinner, I just don't want to intrude on other peoples lifes. And there lies the problem I would have LOVED to go up north with Tarra for the weekend or have a get together with all my friends but I don't and I won't.
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