It's been far too long since my last post so I'm going to just start from this point in my life now.

In my attempt to get all 60 units of transferable credit worked up in time for me to go to UC Davis I've had to kick up my education into high gear and have enrolled in 20 units this term. Plus at work since I'm always in need of money I've taken over 30 hours of work a week now just to make sure that I might have some spending cash on the side.

My luck though has always come though for me, the second that I started earning more then $250 dollars a month at my job everyone found new and exciting reasons to take all of my money from me. My father took my truck to get fixed with out telling me or asking me and now I owe him $1100, my parents also have decided that they're not going to pay for my books anymore so that adds a wonderful $500+ dollars a term that I can kiss good buy, some how I now owe a collection agency $250 for a AutoCAD class I took but was kicked out of when my patents check bounced.

It feels like I'll never get ahead financially, for every step forward I take I can just expect two more back. I've really wanted to save up money for when I go to Davis in 2010 that I might have a little spending money and I also have wanted to save money so I can go off for a quarter and study in Washington DC as part of the University of California's quarter in DC program, ever since reading about it I've really really really wanted to go and intern in DC but it costs $3000 plus tuition and I'd have to buy real office clothing so it's going to look expensive. I also have been trying to save money so I can start thinking about buying an engagement ring and the likes.

I've come to the conclusion that none of this is going to happen, no matter what I do I am always going to be dirt poor, there will always be someone there to take what little money I save up. The universe refuses to make this whole process easy for me.

This February I get to try to get my family to sign and properly fill out a FAFSA for the first time, ever since I started college back in 2004 I've tried my hardest to get my family to fill out a FAFSA, but they always have an excuse, they change their excuse every year you see one year I was told that the FAFSA was a scam, the other year I was told that the government didn't really need my parents info if I was the one getting the money, sometimes they just tell me no and don't even give an answer. This is all really just a giant precursor to my future student loans, I can see how this is going to work out now. I'm going to get accepted to Davis, I might even get some kind of scholarship but my family will refuse to help me take out loans, I believe that they will cite something crazy like they don't have the credit or that they don't feel the need to take out a loan because I can just work up the money for school on my own (They have told me this before about art school apparently if I work really really hard I could have made the $45,000 I needed to finish my degree, but it was my own lack of motivation that prevented me from finishing art school). Discourageing as it may sound it's the ugly truth, I'm hoping that once I get my 60 units I might get some kind of miracle and money will rain from the sky, but knowing my luck this is how it will progress. I will get accepted but I won't have the money until I'm 25 when I'm no longer a dependent to them and then I can apply for loans on my own and get federal aid on my own. My family's unwillingness to help me though school will most likely delay my entrance into "real" school by another year, the same time other people my age are finishing grad school I will finely be entering my last couple of years of my undergraduate education.

This was done for an SFZero task you can learn more about my SFZero doings at http://sf0.org/kylehamilton/

Design and produce a blank drink, there are a lot of different drinks I could make but seeing how I haven't slept in almost 48 hours for this task I will be making "The Kyle Hamilton Pharmaceutical Sleepy Time Pineapple Orange Flavored Drink"Since this drink will have a heavy chemical component  I will attempt to explain what I'm doing and adding to the best of my ability.First as with all Kyle Hamilton Tasks my Materials List

One Centrum (thats Latinfor center!) Multivitamin/Multimineral Supplement
One Citracal Calcium Citrate Supplement
75mg (3 pills) of Diphenhydramine (Benadryl)
3mg (1 pill) of Eszopiclone (Prescription Lunesta)
3mg (1 pill) of Melatonin8 oz of Dole Pineapple Orange Juice


First my logical progression Calcium (most notably Ca²⁺) is used by your nervous system to transmit information, if I take some calcium with some magnesium in theory it should help relax my muscles by calming my nervous system. Hence the vitamins and minerals will in turn act as a low grade muscle relaxer.



Diphenhydramine (Benadryl) is an amazing antihistamines, it's related to Prozac in that its a mild SSRI (Selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor) in short, long term use of Benadryl can make you slightly happyer. But the effect I'm looking for isn't in it's ability to make me feel good about myself I'm intrsted in it's anticholinergic property (aka I'm taking this stuff to knock me out, gee isn't medicine fun!). Now the regular reccomaned dose of Benadryl for use as a sleep aid is about 50mg, but I'm playing it safe the safe dose is 100mg so I settled for 75mg


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Ahh the Lunesta, I don't really know much about Lunesta, I am prescribed a 3mg dose of Lunesta by my doctor so I can sleep when I have episodes of insomnia.....much like right now. All I really know is that Lunesta works, and if I start sleep walking or something I need to stop taking it

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Melatonin, is basically the hormone that lets you fall asleep. Melatonin is chalk full of awesome sauce because it's the fundamental hormone that is going to allow me to fall asleep, since just about every living thing know to exist has some form of Melatonin in it the kind I got is made from plants.

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Now on to the making of the drink

First I took all the pills and put them in a plastic bag

Then I smashed them real good


Added the Juice to the bag as to not loose any of the drugs  

poured into a cup, and enjoyed.



Update March 15th 2008 5:00pm

Ok so I did wake up, I asked my family if anything had happened during my 12 hour knock out.At around 9:00am my mother asked me if I wanted cinnamon rolls, she even opened the door and tried to talk to me but it was all in vain, I was dead asleepAt around 2:00pm my little sister tried to wake me up to show me a package I had received, once again I only vaguely remember being woken up and then going back to sleep.I had a dreamless sleep last night, normally I have some sort of dream action even if I can't remember what the dream was I kind of remember waking up at night and thinking "Who what a strange dream". But last night there was nothing, the only thing of interest is that I woke up in the exact same position that I feel asleep in as a result my right side is REALLY sore and my right hand is still a bit tinkly Waking up was kind of hard, my body didn't want to move at all, but since I had to pee really really bad I forced myself to get out and pee, on my return to bed I turned on my computer and ate an hours old cinnamon roll, the food was nice I was really really hungry which I found ironic seeing that I didn't do anything for 12 hours..

Update March 15th 2008 7:45pm   After I posted my last update I talked to my girlfriend, I'm going to a party, so I slept for another 2 hours. She wasn't happy that I messed with a bunch of drugs something about it possibly not being safe. After my 2 hour "nap" she picked me up and we went to the party, before I went I took a caffeine pill (200mg) so I was a little buzzed with caffeine and at the same time a little tired from the sleep. I thought that my drinking tonight would make me super duper sleepy but once I was there it was like any other Friday morning....only it was Saturday night

Update March 16th 2008 8:45am I'm still awake, by my math this should now be my afternoon. Which basically means that I spent my "morning" drinking and partying and now in my afternoon I'm goofing off on SFZero. I should crash any hour now, just in time to miss the podcast and I should wake up just in time to see my girlfriend drag me off to church. I feel as if my entire Saturday was wasted because it feels like Saturday Afternoon...only it's Sunday Morning. This whole not being one bit tired thing is kind of odd to me I would have thought that I would be a little bit tired right now but I'm not I'm 100% ready to rock and roll. Also the coming down off my buzz thing was weird to me as well. I've always been asleep as my buzz/drunkenness falls off but in all honesty this is an eye opening experince for me 2am I'm buzzed and loving it, now at 8:00am I'm cold and want a shower.

This year I’ve been working on losing weight, it’s become a personal goal of mine to get down to 210 pounds, and into a health BMI range. Well before Thanksgiving and before I started working up in projection I weighed 230/235 pounds, I was the lightest I’ve been since early high school. Then projection happened, all I do when I work up in projection is walk for almost 8 hours straight. I walk around treading and starting movies, sometimes I’ll even sneak downstairs to get some Diet Pepsi and haul myself back up to get back to work. As a result I’ve gained 10 pounds this holiday session as of tonight I weigh 240 pounds. At first I was near insulted that I had in my Christmas gluttony gained 10 pounds, then I felt my leg and calf…and then it hit me my legs were super toned and hard. Holy crap I just gained 7 pounds of leg muscle, this explains everything, why my legs hurt all the time, and why I have a near unlimited source of endurance at work. Also I’ve been doing sit ups and push ups in an attempt to form my upper body a bit for this summer, that too has added some weight, because I now can sort of feel arm muscle popping up. Needless to say I’m super confused with all of this, it was only a few months ago that I changed over from a 40 inch waist to a 38 inch waist, now as of a few weeks ago I’m down to a 36 inch waist. In one year I’ve lost 4 inches off my waistline

I took my mom and little sister Lauren to the movies today to see National Treasure 2, we went to Chipotle for lunch which was nice both my mom and sister had never been to Chipotle so it was an experience for all of us.

Tarra and one of her friends were going to a concert tonight up at Table Mountain but once they got there it was canceled, so she came home. I came over with Love Actually, Pizza and Beer. It was nice to just have quite Tarra time; I know that this next semester is going to be really busy for us. I have school and 2 jobs, and Tarra is getting ready to graduate so needless to say were both going to be seeing a lot less of each other